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In light of tumblr's recent dramas I've set up a twitter account. Not sure whether it'll stick or not, but we'll see. If anyone would like my twitter please pm me! 

Happy new year, lovelies xxx

apologies if you don't enjoy being called honey pies. only know i mean it lovingly.
anyway just want to say a big thanks to everyone who is watching me here! and i've felt really proactive and good about my new years resolution (which was to post more art, no matter how crap i think it is, just keep posting and drawing). this month has been maybe my most active one drawing wise, and a lot of it's to do with peoples kind comments/encouragement. SO YES THANK YOU FOR THAT. <3
ALSO this year was kinda big for me in that i finally got my own place and am fending for myself like a proper adult (or something doing an okay impression of an adult). so it was anxiety inducing but also exciting! drawing has been very comforting and has helped me settle, i admit. so in a way i guess i'm thanking you guys again for being there through that, even if you weren't aware. 
it's been a fun year so far for many reasons and I hope you've all had fab ones too. damn now this sounds like an end of year message. 
well i'll probably be back before then, just wanted to give a heads up in journal form to all you guys. 
so take care and speak soon, eh ~

I haven't been able to bring myself to write it, and I don't write journal entries too often in the first place here, but it just felt important to do this. Since a few days ago an idol to many people died, and it's still very hard to take. Rik Mayall was special to me in that I grew up with him in the background of my childhood. I watched him in stuff I shouldn't be watching him in (New Statesman, Bottom, The Young Ones) and then more age appropriate stuff like Grim Tales and...well that's about it really. It didn't matter what the program was, nor if I understood it, Rik just had a magnetic, childlike energy that anyone could love. It's such a massive loss in my heart, and waking up knowing that Rik is no longer in the world makes me feel so sick. I've never been so personally affected by a celebrity death before. i guess now I can understand a little better at least. It really is heartbreaking. 
The only comfort is that he touched so many people in the same way, and for that I know his memory will live on through years to come, long after i'm good and gone. RIP Rik. love you, sweetheart. ~